Yesterday was a day ( happy, thinking, still thinking )
i am thinking of whether was this all correct??
i am thinking that despite all this, wat am i really suppose to do now??
yesterday, i went to DXO by random case with J...... actually we wanted to go home but then i was just suggest to have a drink....
in the club, i didnt like the music so i was just drinking....... then 1 thai person came and start try to talk to me....while J pull me away..... then they start inviting to dance with them... i was like " "
but i really start entertaining tots of just get wasted and do the watever....
but the well irrating and well abit happy in the inside was the thai person start taking his phone to video us dancing..... like for once... people are noticing.... like attention seek being found.... but then
BUT then as usual MY LOVE stop me..... i was so sober that instead of dancing, i start thinking of MY LOVE....
there was a live performance.... they sang "LISTEN" i really sang my heart out... the question that many people speak but who is really listening....
well anyway instead of trying to protect peoples in club, i am now protected by J as much i tried to protect her as well...
lastly i had finally made up a hard mind that if i will to be at that decision making stage, i will make that same choice....
cause i know to leave and cliff..... i need to leave something tat is of my comfort and CLIFF on MY LOVE!!!!
MY LOVE, i wish that you will show me HOW TO LOVE PEOPLE LIKE HOW YOU LOVE ME!!!
