Yesterday was a day ( happy, thinking, still thinking )
i am thinking of whether was this all correct??
i am thinking that despite all this, wat am i really suppose to do now??
yesterday, i went to DXO by random case with J...... actually we wanted to go home but then i was just suggest to have a drink....
in the club, i didnt like the music so i was just drinking....... then 1 thai person came and start try to talk to me....while J pull me away..... then they start inviting to dance with them... i was like " "
but i really start entertaining tots of just get wasted and do the watever....
but the well irrating and well abit happy in the inside was the thai person start taking his phone to video us dancing..... like for once... people are noticing.... like attention seek being found.... but then
BUT then as usual MY LOVE stop me..... i was so sober that instead of dancing, i start thinking of MY LOVE....
there was a live performance.... they sang "LISTEN" i really sang my heart out... the question that many people speak but who is really listening....
well anyway instead of trying to protect peoples in club, i am now protected by J as much i tried to protect her as well...
lastly i had finally made up a hard mind that if i will to be at that decision making stage, i will make that same choice....
cause i know to leave and cliff..... i need to leave something tat is of my comfort and CLIFF on MY LOVE!!!!
MY LOVE, i wish that you will show me HOW TO LOVE PEOPLE LIKE HOW YOU LOVE ME!!!
i am at eased of the later test, it is not because i studied but because i decided to make that choice that if i will get it, i will get it... if not forget about it...
i realize what is my mistake and what are the fear due to.....
i will do my best to overcome it...
To my LOVER, teach me YOUR love and show me how to be humble... Bring out those that YOU hate and help me to deal with it, Give me YOUR strength and let me lean on YOURS Help me to keep walking out of the valley to the place where U want me to be from self to YOURS truly
You think you own whatever land you land on The Earth is just a dead thing you can claim But I know every rock and tree and creature Has a life, has a spirit, has a name You think the only people who are people Are the people who look and think like you But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger You'll learn things you never knew, you never knew
Chorus: Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon Or asked the grinning bobcat why he grinned Can you sing with all the voices of the mountain Can you paint with all the colours of the wind Can you paint with all the colours of the wind
Come run the hidden pine trails of the forest Come taste the sun sweet berries of the Earth Come roll in all the riches all around you And for once, never wonder what they're worth The rainstorm and the river are my brothers The heron and the otter and my friends And we are all connected to each other In a circle, in a hoop that never ends
Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon Or let the eagle tell you where he's been Can you sing with all the voices of the mountain Can you paint with all the colours of the wind Can you paint with all the colours of the wind
How high does the sycamore grow If you cut it down Then you'll never know And you'll never hear the wolf cry to the blue corn moon For whether we are white or copper skinned We need to sing with all the voices of the mountain We need to paint with all the colours of the wind You can own the earth and still All you own is Earth until You can paint with all the colours of the wind
Been ask to search for Jazz song, found this sound... have i walk in the footstep of others, have i been round enough to see the world and go through it?? there is so much more to learn and explore!!
btw just a call out, If anyone have KENNY G songs, pls send me!!!!! thanks
Reading on something abt my horoscope.... or well maybe it is happening as well...
it is so scary of wat happen... it is like a dream and suddenly you are awake....
i got a friend say we cancerian will hide when there is problem and when there is danger, we fence ourselve with or without knowing....... in return hurting people unknowingly....
yes abit driving NUTZ.... i do this and tat... but finally i asked why do in the first place...
there is so many things under the sun, why do certain things????
damn it seem so stupid after all.... or well watever....
really the stupid project is getting my nerves!!!!!!
i mean like i am so stupidly without any idea or wat so ever of wat to do..... it sound crazy but it is true!!!
then i asked the 2nd question... why am i stupidly in NDP usher??
3rd question.... why am i not studying???
4th question.... why am i going 21!!!!
5th question... i am so stress up with all the above question!!!
I SEE THE KING OF GLORY COMING ON THE CLOUDS WITH FIRE THE WHOLE EARTH SHAKES THE WHOLE EARTH SHAKES I SEE HIS LOVE AND MERCY WASHING OVER ALL OUR SIN THE PEOPLE SING THE PEOPLE SING
HOSANNA HOSANNA HOSANNA IN THE HIGHEST HOSANNA HOSANNA HOSANNA IN THE HIGHEST
I SEE A GENERATION RISING UP TO TAKE THEIR PLACE WITH SELFLESS FAITH WITH SELFLESS FAITH I SEE A NEAR REVIVAL STIRRING AS WE PRAY AND SEEK WE'RE ON OUR KNEES WE'RE ON OUR KNEES
HEAL MY HEART AND MAKE IT CLEAN OPEN UP MY EYES TO THE THINGS UNSEEN SHOW ME HOW TO LOVE LIKE YOU HAVE LOVED ME BREAK MY HEART FOR WHAT BREAKS YOURS EVERYTHING I AM FOR YOUR KINGDOM'S CAUSE AS I WALK FROM EARTH INTO ETERNITY
certain things cant wrap under the paper... it will come to light... what is dark will come to light... things change so fast... from unnotice to noticable... trouble brewing... wat is small turn big... peopke talks and that is when danger happen... prepare for the storm and sail it more smoothly bon voyage
there is 4 type of love, but i alway stop at 3 type... i wish i can agape HIM.. but then it is alway so hard to.... but one thing i know even when i wan break up, HE wont allow it... HE will alway remember draw me away to HIS PRESENCE to stay...
what is love was the question i asked a few blog ago... well i got an answer.... Love is something you know that is very painful and taking lotz of you but then you still appreciate the process of going through it... in return you change yourself to adapt to this love... but every love teach a person how to love even more... there is no formula, each to its own different... expression and reasons... why such a love take place... there is no logic... of coz there is some that backfire but if you stop loving, you actually stop living...
i felt UR love so strong to me... The tug of war... i let go at one end, but yet YOU alway pull it back at the other...
