Elaine 2009

2009-06-28T01:10:00.001+08:00

Have MOVed to http://www.suprisewithlove.wordpress.com/ !!! pls update!!!

2009-06-24T11:08:00.000+08:00

Very sianz.... but then Lesson learn!!! train before re attempt!!!

2009-06-20T01:42:00.002+08:00

well 1000 of sorries...dun mean anything..... so well i admint i "F" this WEEK...

F = FAILED
= FALL
= FAINT
= FALTER

but yet MY LOVE, i dun want to GIVE UP ON YOU...PRESS ON and PUSH FORWARD.....

PUSH = Pray Untill Something Happen!!!

NexT weeK will be BETTER!!!

but altot in the midst of all the "F" i still THANK MY LOVE FOR LOVING ME BY ALLOWING ME TO GO AND DO CERTAIN THINGS I HAVE BEEN HOPING FOR!!!!

2009-06-17T23:49:00.002+08:00

Certain of man kind weakness is actually the battle of SELF... KILL MYSELF...... the SELF is a flesh.... KILL MY SELF PLS!!!!

is really not abt others during the days of headache.... well you got to learn how to TAME AND KILL THE SELF factor... Idoit...

2009-06-14T12:12:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was a day ( happy, thinking, still thinking )

i am thinking of whether was this all correct??

i am thinking that despite all this, wat am i really suppose to do now??

yesterday, i went to DXO by random case with J...... actually we wanted to go home but then i was just suggest to have a drink....

in the club, i didnt like the music so i was just drinking....... then 1 thai person came and start try to talk to me....while J pull me away..... then they start inviting to dance with them... i was like " "

but i really start entertaining tots of just get wasted and do the watever....

but the well irrating and well abit happy in the inside was the thai person start taking his phone to video us dancing..... like for once... people are noticing.... like attention seek being found.... but then

BUT then as usual MY LOVE stop me..... i was so sober that instead of dancing, i start thinking of MY LOVE....

there was a live performance.... they sang "LISTEN" i really sang my heart out... the question that many people speak but who is really listening....

well anyway instead of trying to protect peoples in club, i am now protected by J as much i tried to protect her as well...

lastly i had finally made up a hard mind that if i will to be at that decision making stage, i will make that same choice....

cause i know to leave and cliff..... i need to leave something tat is of my comfort and CLIFF on MY LOVE!!!!

MY LOVE, i wish that you will show me HOW TO LOVE PEOPLE LIKE HOW YOU LOVE ME!!!

2009-06-13T01:54:00.003+08:00

I hear a Voice that say.... Arise and KEEP WALKING..... finally i hear my LOVE speak after days of silent...

I finally felt MY LOVE.... the thick heart and thin skin... i prayed that it will just change...

I finally understand what is FAITH.... FAITH is still believing despite the problem tell you otherwise!!!!

someone ask..... so who is your bf???

well all i can say i am not physically attached....

but yet the desire to get attach now....no longer burning cause i want to fall deeper in love with MY LOVE....

i ask a question...without going through certain things, will i stay the same????? what is that future like???

2009-06-11T13:52:00.002+08:00

Some people ask HEY ELAINE what you want for your 21th Birthday!!!!

well here is a wishlists which might be alot... lolz

Ed Hardy Hoodie!!!!!!! i know i cant get it by my own means (anyone in the US can help)

Ed Hardy Tshirt..... well same as the above!!!

Nokia E63 of E71

A nice Leather Jacket!!!

Nices Dresses - yes is dresses...

erm well.... for current is like that!

2009-06-11T13:32:00.003+08:00

A Carrot
An egg
Coffee bean

when boiling, what will you turn out to be???

How is my week???

well all i can say is really busy and killing of FLESHLY needs... but realize one thing was true, your heart really engage slower than your head!

head knowledge is just not enough.. u must have heart knowledge..let your heart flow with the Spirit...

be believing altot you dun see..... have you wonder if one day a cell decide to stop functioning, will you still be like normal???

Unveil the cover of nature to let me see MY LOVE from the supernatural!!!

2009-06-08T23:48:00.002+08:00

Ok here is the NEWS... I PASSED MY PPCDL...Celebration!!

2nd of all, i am in the midst of struck at somewhere... where i so freaking need help on!!!!

3rd i need to learn more about art cause mine suX

4th well meeting = U DO!!!! well i learn it right i guess???

5th I SO WANT TO DRIVE ON A POWER CRAFT ON WATERFEST!!!!

6th I want to take off next friday... and i dunno how to approach such question!!!

7th i slept 12 hours soundly yesterday... i am so tired!!!!!!

8th i know i am suppose to go PM everyday till friday this week but well hmm my lazy bone is giving way again!!! so damn it!!! try hard tmr!!!!

9th so Red background go well with wat colour???

10th i am so funny cause i dunno why i start the 10th report from....

maybe too much of reporting so now i love doing LISTING!!!

2009-06-06T08:56:00.002+08:00

i am at eased of the later test, it is not because i studied but because i decided to make that choice that if i will get it, i will get it... if not forget about it...

i realize what is my mistake and what are the fear due to.....

i will do my best to overcome it...

To my LOVER, teach me YOUR love and show me how to be humble...
Bring out those that YOU hate and help me to deal with it,
Give me YOUR strength and let me lean on YOURS
Help me to keep walking out of the valley
to the place where U want me to be
from self to YOURS truly

2009-06-06T00:11:00.003+08:00

The word "I LOVE YOU" - so easy isnt it????

but to say it, it involve high level of COMMITMENT!!!!

well i say this to someone daily!!!! but i refused to commit...

4 chose 1 which will you choose???

to my lover, i nvn regret choosing YOU... YOU ask me to step out but i alway tell YOU my past and 100 of reason why i choose not to step up.....

YOU realize i changed badly, YOU warned me but i fail to hear.... i got into deep SHIT!!

now when i tot no one want me, i turn back to YOU, YOU come back to me....

thanks for YOUR love, with YOU around, i will press on for YOU!!!!

my dearest lover... I LOVE YOU!!! with that i know i am throwing everything away and fix my eye on YOU!!!!

2009-06-05T00:51:00.002+08:00

I am happy for certain things... well someone promise to help me with my PPCDL... i can say this is so wonderful!!

2nd who is so crazy to come down from harbourfront to somerset to meet for 2 hour and spent 30min in toilet to take pix???

welll sometime you got to learn to count your blessing... and do remember to count it twice...

Thanks dearest!!!!

2009-06-04T10:35:00.002+08:00

Colour of the wind

You think you own whatever land you land on
The Earth is just a dead thing you can claim
But I know every rock and tree and creature
Has a life, has a spirit, has a name
You think the only people who are people
Are the people who look and think like you
But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger
You'll learn things you never knew, you never knew

Chorus:
Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
Or asked the grinning bobcat why he grinned
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountain
Can you paint with all the colours of the wind
Can you paint with all the colours of the wind

Come run the hidden pine trails of the forest
Come taste the sun sweet berries of the Earth
Come roll in all the riches all around you
And for once, never wonder what they're worth
The rainstorm and the river are my brothers
The heron and the otter and my friends
And we are all connected to each other
In a circle, in a hoop that never ends

Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
Or let the eagle tell you where he's been
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountain
Can you paint with all the colours of the wind
Can you paint with all the colours of the wind

How high does the sycamore grow
If you cut it down Then you'll never know
And you'll never hear the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
For whether we are white or copper skinned
We need to sing with all the voices of the mountain
We need to paint with all the colours of the wind
You can own the earth and still
All you own is Earth until
You can paint with all the colours of the wind

Been ask to search for Jazz song, found this sound... have i walk in the footstep of others, have i been round enough to see the world and go through it??
there is so much more to learn and explore!!

btw just a call out, If anyone have KENNY G songs, pls send me!!!!! thanks

a tot or a feeling????

2009-06-03T22:23:00.003+08:00

Reading on something abt my horoscope.... or well maybe it is happening as well...

it is so scary of wat happen... it is like a dream and suddenly you are awake....

i got a friend say we cancerian will hide when there is problem and when there is danger, we fence ourselve with or without knowing....... in return hurting people unknowingly....

yes abit driving NUTZ.... i do this and tat... but finally i asked why do in the first place...

there is so many things under the sun, why do certain things????

damn it seem so stupid after all.... or well watever....

really the stupid project is getting my nerves!!!!!!

i mean like i am so stupidly without any idea or wat so ever of wat to do..... it sound crazy but it is true!!!

then i asked the 2nd question... why am i stupidly in NDP usher??

3rd question.... why am i not studying???

4th question.... why am i going 21!!!!

5th question... i am so stress up with all the above question!!!

2009-06-03T12:02:00.000+08:00

I SEE THE KING OF GLORY COMING ON THE CLOUDS WITH FIRE THE WHOLE EARTH SHAKES
THE WHOLE EARTH SHAKES
I SEE HIS LOVE AND MERCY WASHING OVER ALL OUR SIN
THE PEOPLE SING
THE PEOPLE SING

HOSANNA HOSANNA
HOSANNA IN THE HIGHEST
HOSANNA HOSANNA
HOSANNA IN THE HIGHEST

I SEE A GENERATION RISING UP TO TAKE THEIR PLACE WITH SELFLESS FAITH WITH SELFLESS FAITH
I SEE A NEAR REVIVAL STIRRING AS WE PRAY AND SEEK
WE'RE ON OUR KNEES
WE'RE ON OUR KNEES

HEAL MY HEART AND MAKE IT CLEAN
OPEN UP MY EYES TO THE THINGS UNSEEN
SHOW ME HOW TO LOVE LIKE YOU HAVE LOVED ME
BREAK MY HEART FOR WHAT BREAKS YOURS
EVERYTHING I AM FOR YOUR KINGDOM'S CAUSE
AS I WALK FROM EARTH INTO ETERNITY

Words and Music by Brooke Fraser

"Hillsong United - All of the above"

2009-06-02T22:26:00.002+08:00

Even everything changes, YOUR love will nvn change....

A LOVE so great to comprehand

Sitting there in AWE of your love

Be in the presence of YOURS

As i wait on

YOU tested my patience

many time i failed

but YOU alway give a chance

YOU taught me how to love

so that i can love

YOU taught me YOUR truth

so that i will be truthful

YOU give me your Comandments

so that i could keep in heart

YOU give me time

so that i can learn how to treasure

YOU give me life

so that i can live on

YOU gave me YOUR life

so that YOU can show me an example

YOU spread open YOUR hand

so that YOU can accept

YOUR love is more than enough for me to handle... with YOU i will do my best!!

2009-06-02T22:03:00.001+08:00

100 of questions asked... but there is no solution to it...

what on earth is going on??

2009-06-01T20:59:00.002+08:00

People change as things change...
there is a reason and purpose for everything...

maybe that is the reason why we are certain place at certain time!!!

2009-06-01T15:26:00.001+08:00

certain things cant wrap under the paper... it will come to light... what is dark will come to light...
things change so fast...
from unnotice to noticable... trouble brewing... wat is small turn big... peopke talks and that is when danger happen...
prepare for the storm and sail it more smoothly
bon voyage

2009-06-01T11:05:00.002+08:00

there is 4 type of love, but i alway stop at 3 type... i wish i can agape HIM.. but then it is alway so hard to.... but one thing i know even when i wan break up, HE wont allow it... HE will alway remember draw me away to HIS PRESENCE to stay...

what is love was the question i asked a few blog ago... well i got an answer.... Love is something you know that is very painful and taking lotz of you but then you still appreciate the process of going through it... in return you change yourself to adapt to this love... but every love teach a person how to love even more... there is no formula, each to its own different... expression and reasons... why such a love take place... there is no logic... of coz there is some that backfire but if you stop loving, you actually stop living...

i felt UR love so strong to me... The tug of war... i let go at one end, but yet YOU alway pull it back at the other...

2009-05-31T22:55:00.002+08:00

i finished watch a series 同事三分亲..... well after watching the show, i got a lot of feeling.... haha some are like so real in my life...so are like well maybe it will happen....

the question i ask myself after the show will be so what is next... what should be my next step???

2009-05-28T22:47:00.002+08:00

I learned one thing never BELIEVE WATEVER PEOPLE SAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I Fishing hate people trying to be negative of other people!!!! so if u so like to Fishing talk negatively... pls get lost!!! i dun need to be more negative!!! i have enough worrys and problems

i am so sick and tired of people trying to kill each other!!! it SUX to the Core!!!

i so Fishing hate to be a well *ASS*************

well but i am glad with something, i spend time with someone that i really try very hard to be with...well today i am having an entire afternoon and evening with her!!!!

2009-05-27T22:21:00.002+08:00

wat is love??? is a show i watch!!!

i asked myself that question!!! can i accept just anyone that come along my way??? am i prepare??? the answer is NO NO NO!!!!!!!!!!! i totally dun want to get involve with it!!!!!!!!

i found a love!! that love is so painful and hard!!! after long struggle, i decided to give up!!! does it hurt, YES!! but it is better than keep on banging that wall!!!

anyway some kind of love is also so worth to try!! i am going to have lunch with woei chyi!!! seriously sometime other than work, i wish we can talk something more!!! i am so looking forward for it!!!

Love is blind sometime... it is hurt, it is pain!!! i found her number but the courage to call her is like zero!!! i dun want to face the truth!!!

2009-05-26T23:02:00.002+08:00

i seriously lost sense of my brain!!! i am suppose to meet someone but i went home...

i am so blur!!!

haha this few time i saw an ad... the celestial necklace by Gold heart... quite nice... hmm just being random!!

2009-05-25T20:39:00.002+08:00

i was just allowing my mind to wander... anyway recently happen stuff had made me change my course... well i learned from sailing is either you set your course and adjust the sail but for me is set the sail and adjust the course...

my course is i am going to change my life but yet got to move forward!!!

2009-05-24T21:31:00.002+08:00

No blog due to i am on the changing side... from a super indoor person... erm my cca in pri and sec was librarian!!! to a outdoor person!! well all my friend ask me to work my butt abit...

well i didnt tot of sailing untill i learn PPCDL then followed by i got to board a Keel Boat at Raffles Marina... so i went to learn.... erm damn haha i am still lazy as usual... but then the fun part come from i learn some things!!!

so the weekend spent well enjoyable other then being hit by the broom and well capsized!! haha i realize i am not scare of water... that coolz!! or well maybe i got slow reaction due to i too lazy.. so when drop in the water... i will still figure how i drop in which i didnt scream but hey i do enjoy inside the water... it is so much cooler!!!

so changing wind!!!>... indoor to outdoor.... jia you ELaine!!! welll busy week!!!

2009-05-22T22:22:00.002+08:00

There is many thing happening!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was lost and confused!!!!!!!!!!!

but the good news is i started something and i am happy that i am going to complete it...

i brought the gift too... hopefully it is nice...

i got NUM sandal... i dunno why i brought it tooo...erm really

i watched movie....

well the day had come!!! sianz....

2009-05-21T10:00:00.002+08:00

seriously i want to brush up my chinese!!!!!!!!!!!! i want to learn more hanyipinying!!!!!!!!!!

this is one of the day............................ HOME IS WHERE I WANT TO BE!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-18T10:39:00.001+08:00

There is a saying in chinese that translate Borrow Knife to kill people…

the art of silent killer is to kill without using own hand!!!

2009-05-17T16:49:00.003+08:00

Brain Blank!!!

anyway i didnt sleep till 5 plus am...crazy man... idoit....

so super sleepy... attend Pris Birthday.... nice...

anyway... going back to my grandma place....

2009-05-15T10:39:00.001+08:00

Seriously dunno what to do.... it is the most uptight issue to solve!!!

looking for solution!

2009-05-12T00:15:00.002+08:00

Have u hate feeling that you know something bad is happening but yet u dunnno and then when it happen u have a shock welll this is my feeling right now...

i really very sianz when i have such a feeling....

haiz... hopefully wont get anything bad tmr... haiz..

anyway just a update..hmm Michelle and Shawn wedding.... wow i think that is every girl dream to be Princess wearing the white gown walking down the aisle and looking at being the most pretty among the crowd.... then from Father will the princess to the prince and say now you have to look after my princess...

that will be the princess dream............. but yet there are few people who will nvn have the chance of it... i am one of them... i wont have daddy holding my hand and give consent to my prince....

This is my depress moment.... yes i am having lotz of emotion looking at the clock and the date...

it is the exact two year and well at 11 plus am will be the exact hour....

as i reflect... i realize everything was there... the time the place the venue... nothing seem able to take that past from me.......

After you left.. i brace myself so that i can be strong for the family... i promise you i will look after them but i failed to many time... i run away as though as i am not responsible......... i am like someone who said that i am a hermit crab...... i hide all the emotion i hide all the feeling i make it so cold as though as i no longer feel...
i isolate i am afraid of everything........ i am worrying all the time............ i am lost........ i dun even believe what is there.......... i no longer trust........ i lost myself in this big circle.............. i felt trapped.........

i yearn for a stroke from you....... i yearn for a family photo with you.............. i wish i could reverse the past as though nothing happen....... i wish to have a complete family even though we cant even afford food and there is no electricity at home.........where people sell all our property....... there is nothing at home........ there is a saying that in the heart of a daugther there is a hero and the hero will alway be daddy.........

U are my super hero...... cause no matter what you work from the lowest just to put food on the table....... u dun mind being shame by others......u doing just for us......... i will nvn forget the lunch.... tat minced meat salted egg with porridge and pig liver... u show me how to eat the pig liver so tat it taste nice..... when i lost to u in big 2 game at coffeeshop....... when u were trying to sleep we took photo together....... while u fainted and i still tot u are asleep........ when u rest ur head in hospital... i still laugh....... when u breath ur last...... the promise i made and no tear come...... when u were being put in the coffin and my fear to see you... when i walk behind ur coffin and the song Amazing Grace and How great thou art played........ when u being push to the flame... i look at you so helpless.......... and put all the blame on me..........

when i held your bone and trying to figure which part belong to which...... when mummy put the cross on ur skull... when it was sealed...... i got to send you to ur place........ i just being blank......
when i see the trauma of mummy throwing everything belong to u........... i locked myself and wet myself to bed.....

as amazing grace played........... u were indeed my amazing grace...... u give me life to live on till now... u show me despite being poor still must know how to bend down and go by the lowest....

now that u are gone for 2 years i ask myself what i had done......... i totally didnt do anything i still failed the family........... u told one auntie that u worry the most for me cause i am the most unsensible and alway insisted my own way and going out........ being domineering is my character..... i try to change now i no longer put my opionion on others i am more home based.. i keep away from drinking till drank... i try to make sense of everything before i do......
but u longer can tell i change............. u no longer can tell me anything........

daddy sometime i wish tat you tell me tat u walk away with other woman or gone to another country...... at least i know you are breathing somewhere... and u still can visit us.........

my wish this year was to have a chicken rice feast........... where you will cook and they can try how good your cooking will be..........maybe you can find a business partner... u didnt wait for my 21th birthday....... u didnt keep your promise.........

now i only can blame myself for not spending enough time with you......... and not loving you enough!!!

David Chan Ying Moon
DOB 18 May 1962
Departed on 12 May 2007

Forever misssssssed by Wife - Leow siok buay
Forever missssssssed by daughter - Chen shuyun Elaine
Forever missssssssed by daughter - Eileen Chan Li yun

Forever goodbye and till the day we meet again.......

2009-05-10T00:02:00.002+08:00

Attended Sparc AGM... No Comment....

Went to have lunch with Zk and few year 2.... Topics: Somelia Pirates came in and welll training...Missing Hafiz and Kent... ZKH... haiz....

Church.... Great Mother day msg...

suppose to go dinner with my mum but sis suggested we go on our own... went to trumpet praise to get gift!! we saw battlefield of the mind, she told me she quite interested... well i was telling someone when i was browsing bookstore that i am interested too... so we bought it!

hopefully i can understand the mind!!

next up Phil Pringle new book!!! and well The last Lecture!!

i like books that inspire and aspire a person!!!

sometime u do it with simple heart... ppl take it with complexity brain!!
The battle within the brain... well it is hidden!!

2009-05-09T00:04:00.002+08:00

day 5 - i seem to be struck at home that i dun want to go...at this rate i am going, i dun think i want to go office on monday...haiz... holiday make you lazy...

i am thinking of something that my ex ex godmum said about banishing the white knight myth...it is actually a book... welll i am thinking when my ex ex godmum introduce me this book, what was her feeling... anyway here to write maybe a story maybe a poem maybe end up nothing....

it begin with a day when Ver is on the phone with someone...she was sick that day and being a girl, she whine to her bf "hey i am sick, will you come over to visit me?"
well without thinking the bf rode with surprise arrived at her place even without her knowing...see her not properly dress and went to her bed and smile at her and said "Surprise! I brought you self made honey green tea so that you can get well" and well i need to go do something else...so got to go...kiss her and say bye...

late afternoon after lunch Ver felt lonely and void and decided to call on her bf... they talk about their future and trying to make her feel better but she just didnt so there was a long conversation..

after a long conversation Ver felt the urge to use the toilet and as she step to the toilet, she saw a fainted person... she was shocked that she call others for help........ her bf rushed down..... he helped all the way till hospital........... at that point Ver felt touched.......but bad news came... the fainted person pass away third day...Ver supposed to feel touched change her character and felt that it is all her fault..... from that day on, she determine to get rid of tat bf and be mentally unstable.....

2009-05-07T13:29:00.003+08:00

Day 3 and 4 of MC... well today is my MAMA" Birthday...wanted to ask her go out and eat but then she didnt want... so as i have $50 Taka Voucher, i decided to give it to her since she like to shop!!! erm btw she shop more than i do and in term of price well... lets put that aside!!!

well basically day 3 i read chapter 2 of law notes and Blank BLANK!!!! damn it.... hopefully it is not my killer subject... erm i brought from my ex Godma tracy...Necklace for someone 21th Birthday..i think her collection are quite good so do support her @ http://plingonline.com/
well i ate chocolate...hehe i cant resist temptation!!! hahah seem like i am enjoying life!!!

day 4 my most happy day!!! haha it stop bleeding and i can talk of coz sounded weird and hehe still got abit swollen so got to talk with caution!!! i didnt know i can go so quiet and so guai to stay home for 3 and 1/2 days...finally pack the room!! do things without my grandma telling!!!
done my office work... only today then send me haiz.... hopefully i wont get blame for it!!!
i am chewing from the other side of my mouth.... whee.......
just received email from 2005 ITE OD classmate!! wow long time!! will look forward for the Meet up!!!

finally i will really like to thank GOD for my wisdom tooth!! i think nothing can make me stay at home and rest for so long well i am not home stay person!!! with all the planning and birthday coming up and gathering!!! i am sure i will be super busy!!!

many asked erm elaine what are you going to do for my 21th... seriously i still dunnno... i got a family of like 40 members... and many many friends which i really really want to catch up and chil with... i hereby say that well i am not a good friend cause of my habit of not replying sms and calls when i am working or busy with other things!!!

a miracle hope to see my Non official godmum again despite whatever had happened or whatever others said about her....

suggestion will be friend friend different from family... but to save money will be alll together...

haha my friend so cute put her blog.... i only want Hong Bao nothing else...

hmm as for me well same Hong Bao so i can pay the stuffs and make sure my bank got $500 and above haiz... responsibility come with 21!!!!!!!!

but then my wishes is still own Ed hardy hoodie!
well of coz a trip with my precious grandma with no one else!!! hmm i wish to go australia with her or some romentic country... yes to some of my friend who know i want to visit israel and rome...but haiz $$$$ is a problem!!!

I got to thank GOD that he fuifill my wish on Laptop, Digital Camera electronic stuffz for the past few years..... erm well now i need to do is to find money for my Driving test haiz fail 2 times... i am sianz... but still want to get my license!!!! and PPCDL is on 6 JUNE 2009 GOD pls help me to study and well be calm during the test!!!

Btw i will like to thank GOD for his provision to fulfill building FUND.. indeed it was more than i could handle and well i admit i wasnt wise with money this time round and indeed my treasure was at somewhere else and i almost couldnt fulfill the fund!!! BUT GOD made a way!!! so Praise the LORD!!!

well can tell from my blog i am so in the good mood... tat i blog so long!!! i tot being home i will have nothing to blog but then idea still flood!!!

2009-05-06T00:27:00.002+08:00

Day 2 of MC... hmm i tried to read Law notes but i still dun understand... i guess i didnt really read into my brain so will studied again tmr...

cant believe someone from office will phone me...erm well i am abit dotz by it....

anyone know where can i get a book by a doctor called "The Last Lecture" i am inspired and really want to know more abt the book...

realize i will bled when i start talking...haiz.... hopefully it had stopped...

anyway was thinking abt eternal promise... i meant like i promise to do something for eternal... i search deep within and i realize hey elaine, i dont think you can do it... come on small changes already take like super long to do it...cant imagine life long...haiz...

anyway will start reading a book... i must pick up the habit of reading!!!

2009-05-04T23:59:00.003+08:00

my wisdom tooth ops was a success =) i am so happy that i had it removed in the early stage.. but then now i am with swollen cheek....and the bleeding had not stopped..haiz..

thanks for those who care for me in Facebook... i am really touched!!

2009-05-02T01:31:00.002+08:00

Wa a day spent!!!

Eileen and I won a Me to you bear for 6 where i saw it is like 55dollar when you buy from outside!!! but we play another which cost us more than that... damn it!!

i watch 17 Again... erm it was damn nice.... haahaha................just did a test my love language is Quality time!!! hahaha i change from last time physical touch to quality time!! maybe time where i spend the most prove it!!!

gtg zzz...

2009-04-29T20:11:00.001+08:00

When you so damn down...maybe all you need is a quiet whisper that say carry on!

haha i guess it is not my day today...well i think too much!!! tired and woreout!

2009-04-28T21:57:00.002+08:00

Congrats to people who got into the Sparc Exco...

on a random note i am well but then my collegues are falling sick... lol erm here i am thinking hehe am i the cause???

anyway

take care people!!

2009-04-27T07:38:00.002+08:00

i think it had been a long time since i have the desire to blog in the early morning...

just a penny of thoughts... one day if all your wishes and hope come true... will you still go all out for it???

isnt this what i hope for?? why when it happen, i am holding back??

Every Problem is make so that we can overcome it and be Strong!!

2009-04-26T15:16:00.002+08:00

whatever happen in the past... i hope it will just be in the past...

2009-04-24T20:17:00.004+08:00

I sat down one corner to understand things... i asked GOD... hey why was i created? He said that so you can accomplish great things in Life for ME... but i told HIM but i am totally nothing... He just smile and said I had make You Everything!

anyway just really like to thank GOD for all that is happening whether good or bad... through the bad, i learned certain things.... i open to accept things as it is.. no longer trying to deny.. i will just admit....

through the good, i learned to appreciate...maybe wat i tot was bad turn good....

well this week mark the end of SeaAsia, i screw certain things up but yet i will do my best to make improvement... i am happy for certain things as well despite being bad....

my ITP well i am still learning,trying hard.... human relationship...well learning hard too...

2009-04-23T00:15:00.001+08:00

Certain things do change with time...

change the time or yourselve..

you choose!

2009-04-20T23:15:00.003+08:00

Do you hear certain things and trigger something that is deep in you and you suddenly reacted??

someting that are so closed within suddenly trigger to open.........but yet when open, the wound get deeper...

Does a heart lock up be open??????? who own the key to that heart????

Lock up in a world that no one know..................

A relationship make out of 2 persons willing to open the heart and exposed it to each other...
it is not cold but warm....

2009-04-19T22:38:00.003+08:00

It is an eventful week really... to hear certain things... i kind of think that well everyone is as human as another human.. altot you wish this will nvn have repeat on others but it nvn seem to be in this way =(

well that is life..

hmm just share my weekend... abt stepping out!!

i step out by going for a outdoor activity that is sailing on a keel boat! i nvn tot of doing that in my life.. i guess that is being part of maritime school make me become... I love the Sea and yes i want to PAss my PPCDL!!!! rawr....

i love the time spent at sea... i love the time when you realize that at sea, you are just so small compare to the sea and well the beatiful creation too =)

i step out by not just scratching the surface with my family...we actually really speak our mind =)

well in regard to the bad... let it just stay there...

i wish there is more opportunites where i can step out...

my experience tell me... if you nvn step out, you nvn know ur potential and limits!!!

Step out =) do the uncommon...remember genius use 1% more than the normal!!!

2009-04-17T18:40:00.002+08:00

When it is time to STOP.... u just got to... sometime move away to breath....

while traveling back, i saw a lady crying...

it just depend on the hour and timing...

As you thought things are bad... look around you find that you are not the worst..

Break away... things away... lets Party tonight!

2009-04-12T12:50:00.002+08:00

Sometime you love someone so much that all does not matter...seriously i really think my sister is the best... like who on earth will drag her sister out just to go gym despite me being so lazy.... ignore all phone call... just to go crazy with me... altot she find me annoying but then haha time she still will go with me...trust in me.... and just be with me... i just love her... as i am typing, she is still sleeping... i dunno what she want to do today... but i know she just want me... or maybe i just need her... so who say u need a guy to be with you.... i just need my sister!!!

2009-04-12T00:54:00.002+08:00

I cried as i saw the drama...everytime i see the drama... the WHIPing!! By HIS Strip, We are Heal... for 6 hour, Someone who is blameless hung on the CROSS... scars.... and NAILED!!

for you and ME....

i love the song... This is Your Saviour... Pure Love of Heaven.. sent to dead on calvery... to bear the sin of all... rejected cursed to died but silently endure.. HIS blood pour out an offering at the foot of the CROSS!!! for the broken hearted for the poor and rich... HE shed HIS blood for you and me!!!!!!

maybe everyone looking for something............... in search of something call Perfect!! but i will keep telling myself.. i found it... now is how i treasure it....

2009-04-09T13:37:00.001+08:00

A person can be a toy and also a weapon...

when it is fun, it is like a toy..

when it is hurting.. it is like a weapon!

2009-04-04T23:05:00.002+08:00

i was thinking of the word Focus while on my way to meet someone... hmm Light came into my mind...

One white light goes to prism and change to 7 Lights.. Look beautiful but then nope nothing happen if u use it for a purpose...

but yet one Laser beam light (FOCUS) can cut things like DIAMOND but yet not very beautiful!!! how impressive!!!

the word is still FOCUS!!!

ELAINE pls be FOCUS!!! and Press in and ON!!!

side note.. i enjoyed my time with my FAMILY and i am great to be able to see them during my 21th Birthday =)

2009-04-04T00:12:00.003+08:00

Great leader are people who know how to WORK really HARD and yet at the same time PLAY HARDER when the Opportunity Strike....

just came back from SingTel Satellite FY Kick Off.. seriously most people wondering what is that all abt??? ok at first my tot was well it will be a bleh bleh bleh session when they try to present number and more number than say sad news then try to have Impossible aim... ok tat was all i was thinking!!!

BUT

nope it was not.... altot the goal are high to achieve but one word that i believe even for the walk with GOD is the Same... That powerful word is FOCUS!!

walk in the way of the LORD... dun lost sight dun lost track and dun side track... it strike me very hard...

but what Mr Titus which is the VP said that is very true... at least you bang into something u got sound... but if you are not even moving, how can you even have sound???

Mistake are meant for learning but if you dun even make mistake??? how do you learn????

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guess other than just talking chatting... we played as well.... guess what there was a singing session... man.... i miss the time on board MEL!!

anyway the VP sang and all the SMA intern too.... we sang the song 朋友...just wondering the next kickoff right... erm it will be 5th generation!!

i really thank Mr Titus cause he such a good VP i meant like which company will ask Ex intern to pls join my company event???

i think this Kick off is a success... seriously... during the goal session.. i asked myself... what do i want to achieve in the end in SINGTEL Sat??? yes to do my duckie mummy job as a marcom.. but i really want to go beyond that... maybe in term of product knowledge???
during the start i was thinking hey this does not concern me.. but then as the talk goes on, i was thinking how to improve Satcom@SMA??

how should it be done??? how can i help to contribute... if i just see myself as small fry like hey this is nothing.. then seriously i am nothing... then i wont event do my job properly as a guide...

Mr Jeffrey suggested Ber and Yb to go FYP for Geofencing... then suggested me to look in area where i too can do FYP... but if i were to sit at the fence then seriously nothing is going to happen!!

i will start planning for things...yes i want to be a sponge... i asked GOD to pls give me wisdom of Solomon.... for the next 5 month... CHANGES and things.... Pls LORD help me to be senstive!!!

2009-03-29T16:59:00.002+08:00

Just penny of thought...

if there is a dark spot in life... how do you clean it???

if there is misunderstanding.. how do you clear it???

though the sky is raining heavily but i guess my heart inside is looking for something warm!

maybe a LOVE from SOMEONE!!!

the cold mountain in north pole melted... but what about the mountain of my Heart had it been melted too or izzit getting harder??

sometime i feel lost.. sometime i feel lonely... sometime i just stood there and wonder?

who is that prince or who is the ONE???

HE found me but have i found HIM too?

2009-03-29T12:39:00.002+08:00

How was ur trip onboard MEL???

well i think i enjoy this MEL the most +)

we are partying like there is no day =) we are singing til the star goes home =)

we chatted like there is no end to the topics..

friendship were built onboard the cruise...

inspiration and motivation!!

i fell in love with this song when i am onboard the cruise

Starry starry night paint your palette blue and grey
look out on a summer's day with eyes that know the darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills sketch the trees and the daffodils catch the breeze and the winter chills in colors on the snowy linen land. And now I understand what you tried to say to me how you suffered for your sanity how you tried to set them free. They would not listen they did not know how perhaps they'll listen now. Starry starry night flaming flo'rs that brightly blaze swirling clouds in violet haze reflect in Vincent's eyes of China blue. Colors changing hue morning fields of amber grain weathered faces lined in pain are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand. And now I understand what you tried to say to me how you suffered for your sanity how you tried to set them free. perhaps they'll listen now. For they could not love you but still your love was true and when no hope was left in sight on that starry starry night. You took your life as lovers often do; But I could have told you Vincent this world was never meant for one as beautiful as you. Starry starry night portraits hung in empty halls frameless heads on nameless walls with eyes that watch the world and can't forget. Like the stranger that you've met the ragged men in ragged clothes the silver thorn of bloddy rose lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow. And now I think I know what you tried to say to me how you suffered for your sanity how you tried to set them free. They would not listen they're not list'ning still perhaps they never will.

2009-03-26T10:00:00.002+08:00

Hi all

i am back but then i am sick

there is some changes in the office but then like what the talk in the cruise

be open and ready to accept changes =)

alway stay OPEN!!!

2009-03-22T08:08:00.001+08:00

Hi

i will be away for MEL

so there will be no update... but anyway all i can say is maybe i should be Understanding!!!

2009-03-20T10:19:00.002+08:00

i had a tot while coming to work... i tot abt how do each and individual of them are thinking??

how do they feel about the company??

are they just working for the sake of money or are they working for their passion??

in a small room of their "work space" do they really enjoy it???

2009-03-18T08:41:00.000+08:00

got back my result!!!

i think i did ok =) at least i push up the grade tat i almost failed so I thank GOD for it!

2009-03-15T10:06:00.002+08:00

Life is like so easy to move on if we willing to let go!

anyway right... today going to spend my time out with my sister and later my mother!! hopefully we will have a peaceful dinner together!!! no quarrel no Fighting!!!

then tmr singteling!!!!! i love them!!!!! i will do well because of love and not because of grade...

i am officially leaving singapore next sunday!!! tat fast man!!!!

i got many thing this week so next sunday is a life of the relax!!!

2009-03-13T18:28:00.002+08:00

From twiny blog... hope you dun mind!!! i dunno how true it is.....

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

You value your friendships: 65%You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

How will you choose your Mr Right?
You will make the most of being able to shop around for Mr Right. You love your freedom and will have a lot of fun learning about what sort of man you like. When you do find the guy for you, nobody will be able to keep you away from the church.

Who will be your future Mr Right?
Your real-life hero will be manly. He'll be dependable, even financially. He will protect you and always respect your feelings. He'll probably be quite a bit older than you.

When will you get married?
As soon as you fall in love, you'll want to grab your man and hang on to him. You will probably marry very young, so it would be wise of you to think carefully before committing.

What sort of wife will you be?
You are a bit tricky. You might pretend to be a sensitive and caring wife in his eyes, but you'll be ready to laugh at him behind his back and eventually you may even leave him for another man.

Will you and your husband have a good time together?
You and your hubby will enjoy each other's company playing games until you're old. Whether you play tennis, golf, swim or even just go driving out of town, you'll both stay healthy and happy.

What will your children be like?
Your kids will be very naughty. They will often get into trouble but you will have a great time bringing these fun-loving kids up. They are lively and smart.

How loyal are you?
You get along very well with most guys. Sometimes your friendliness misleads others to think that you're a bit of a flirt, but actually you've got a loyal heart. You'll never have eyes for anyone except your beloved husband.

2009-03-13T18:09:00.002+08:00

Life is simple if you make it simple...

my week 1 attachment over... it is well

i get to go places which haiz.. camera are not allowed or not i will have taken lotz of photo...

haha brought a camera model P50 something got the look of a DSLR.. but well...

anyway... yes... anyone got suggestion for gifts for more mature woman??? i need to find one for my mum or my head will roll!!!

tmr attending wedding... V and hmm forget liao... zzz... i guess i will look forward for my Driving test tmr.. it either pass or well never drive again... tat wat my mum said... sob... if i dun make it!!

well i had a dream... i dream of someone... someone i love... i got into a truce which i dun even know why??? then that person calm me down and i slept like a baby... i never felt tat peace before... i just dunno how it will be??
or is just so much i want to be with this person???

anyway rest well and dun think too much...

2009-03-10T22:56:00.001+08:00

some people just love studies

some people just love sleeping

while some people just enjoy doing nothing!!!

no matter what it is still love for LIFE

2009-03-09T23:53:00.003+08:00

hi hi... thanks for some well wishing from friends tat sms me in regard to my ITP....

I had so much fun... seriously... i went from shenton way to somerset then to lentor then to yishun then to sentosa and back to somerset...

like i spent most of the time out of office???? rather than waiting for instruction and bored to death in office... quite nice i will said... oh seriously i prefer such working environment...

well the people are friendly and warm....

anyway i had a great day today...

tomorrow SMA!!! i need to hand in PASsport and stuff...

btw i change my HP due to poor network and it happen after repairing so i wonder did the person help to repair or help me to spoilt??? ah forget it... so my new phone is F480... nothing special just touch screen and 5 MP camera... simple and nice.... ive will love it cause it is PINK!!!

2009-03-08T01:05:00.002+08:00

wa crap.... i keeep telling people the theory is so easy but just so great i failed my Practical!!!! 2 failure in just two weeks....seriously depressed!!! i meant like i really wanted to cry... or i did cried???

guess wat i was dreaming the whole night of the berthing!!! and the next morning while i tot yes i got it in guess wat i forgot my astern in time... so bang.... damn it!! but the tester was kind enough but yet i still cant grab it... like wat the tester said.. .WHole life wasted...

so wat u can be good at studying but to really handle and apply is 2 different things....

damn the stupid fear... guess wat i can feel when i explain... it is really zzz...

but yet ELAINE JIA YOU!!! things will get better....

maybe the factor is because of U!

2009-03-06T13:11:00.002+08:00

Now at career fair... i had decided to go for ADD instead of chalet... well.. need to study for PPCDL practical oral tomorrow!! stress man!!! but i will still do my best =)

Jia you ELAINE!!!

2009-03-06T00:46:00.002+08:00

wat does random meant???

by being a place not planned??

or by just doing something u never expected??

any i did 2 random thing... firstly i went to an event which my name does not appear anywhere and i got a pass to enter!! amazing...

i decided to randomly go sparc room and in the end just sat there to talk crap and help out randomly then went off???? wat the???? so wat with the prep work to run?????

i decided to randomly go PS to be with piggy family.... which is so not plan and we randomly went daiso, spotlight, john little then ate at hk cafe???

well life is sometime fun with randomness...

and i randomly came here to blog abt randomness!!! how random???

anyway tmr got plan A and B

Plan A go Class Chalet then go back Home 1

or Plan B go SMAC ADD then go back Home 2???

wa... seriously no idea!!!

2009-03-03T10:22:00.001+08:00

Thank God everything went on smoothly and we all had fun...

am i going to miss the fun with them for ITP??? maybe not =) i will do my best to manage both +0

Reallly thanks Mr P and Mr Vp.. all the com Heads and also my very own PUB peoples!

Cheers to SPARC!!!!

2009-03-02T00:56:00.006+08:00

watched Benjamin Button with S yesterday...thank for ur So beearly birthday Present!!! heart shaped necklace... do love it =)

quote from benjamin button " Some people are meant to be strike by Lightning.. Some people are meant to be a dancer, Some People are meant to be a Mother" i love this quote...
anyway hmm So what am i suppose to be...
do i have dream desire.. yes i do..but i am too cold for it anymore.... but one day YES!! i will be that SOMEONE!!!

Yesterday ADD was fun.... so peoples really go all out....
and we took lots of PIXS!!! yes it is all in FB.... gonna miss ZK, Hafiz, Kent and Ameen!!! i meant they are so cool to be with... i learn something from them =)

altot some said tat the new com might not be as strong but then at least do our best to maintain?
i believe SPARC can rise to further Height!!!! seriously before joining i was quite negative.. like wa got P going around through observation but then as i am with them... i realize all these negative had change to positive... and well i learn something from them too... it is end of SParc year 1.... now moving to year 2... i really looking forward to see new people joining and even more people who can lead sparc better??

like a show when there is starting, there is bound to be an ending... well learn something from the year 3... hopefully i will still get to see them again =)

but what was more fun was the after =)

THE time at Indochine!!

it was KT first time... it was my first time with them too...

i had been dreaming for that day to come and finally it happened yesterday...
now i realize i do trust them...hahaha.... cause i was not drinking by slip...but i am pouring it in..
i am just not so afraid i am drunk...

i am not afraid to just look crazy with them...

anyway i do wanted to get wasted yesterday but the meter just reminded me... so i guess there is a limit and i am sober despite abit drunk..

while trying to prove i can walk straight line, erm i think i just cant.... faint =(

Trust is something so special... i know tat i know i trusted them yesterday =)
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wat i look forward is tmr =)

2009-02-28T10:47:00.001+08:00

Had a great time working.. finally i guess i just enjoyed doing lotz of things rather than sit there and stare and do nothing...

but my only regret is unable to work with twin and the rest...

took same train with zh and ber... thanks Ber for willing to show me where to report for the first day of work.

later i going to watch movie with someone... curious case of Benjamin Button!!! woo

then follow by ADD....

on a side note... yes i was very angry yesterday...but today i am cool all abt it and i just going to move on!

sometime just being blur have its benefit!

2009-02-27T01:21:00.002+08:00

When u had been slacking too long, when the busyness suddenly flood u again... how will u feel???

i still feel super lazy and stil feel like zzzz.... but i still thank GOD for slacking day???

i finally stayed home and do nothing... but then during the night with msg, calls... i realize it is not that i dun have anything to do but is i just too lazy to do it!!! self declare mind holiday =)

anyway i am glad tat twin and bernice got the job... or not i will be super guilty...

celebrated my grandpa birthday by going for Fishhead Steamboat... then went to search for ADD stuff... i am really doing my best to Slim but i guess it is just not working!!!

2009-02-25T23:53:00.002+08:00

I went back to school to settle stuffs....

like Invitation to Lecturers for the Class Chalet

Went for Pre ITP briefing!!! YES i love red NOW cause it is SINGTEL company Colour =)

then followed by meeting someone for lunch

and because my ITP book was taken to give someone, i tag along with a capt and walk round the school @.@ just to get the book

then after lunch sat somewhere and relax tilll it is time to hit the GYM!!! My proudest moment was when i used the same machine for 2oMINS!! and other random machines to chalk up 1hours!

then head down to Central to eat at Subway... i realize i cant even finish a meal so i left it for my sister =) and went for BS =) am suppose to be GOHS... but then blurness cause me to be in AFV now but still i will just attend throughout =)

anyway then saw some friends and sat there listening to them talking..seriously it had been awhile since i sat down and just listened!

wat an event full day... tired and sleepy now

2009-02-24T20:59:00.002+08:00

I nvn pass my TP!

i guess no one can be as low as me... 40PT!!!! seriously felt like an idoit!!!

2009-02-23T12:05:00.002+08:00

I tot i no longer cared.. but then i realize is because i care too much tat is why i cant let go...

Had a good time with my sister, we went to see the scenery around the west of Singapore

and we randomly went to sing K for 3 hours, she sang better than me... or maybe i got microphone phobia....

anyway back home, i got my mum to teach me another song...

so i guess to me i thank GOD for Family

2009-02-21T01:49:00.002+08:00

it has been so long.........the silent............the presence..............

i really felt tat even i got many things but i just realize i lost YOU!!!

good girl turned bad......... but by turning bad..will any different be made?

2009-02-17T00:44:00.002+08:00

I was super upset today nope it not because quarrel but because wat was found was being ruined....

seriously i am super down like why.... these happen... why..... after 1 year plus... why!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wat had happened??????????????????

it started with yesterday morning... "Elaine wake up i found it i found it...."

"found what??"

"the missing puzzle piece, dunno can fit anot"

elaine was thinking sure can fit de......

after when grandparent came..... and help with the household chorus.....

grandpa said " u go to the room see"

elaine walked into the room and got a shock!!!!!!!!!

"it was ruined, all the effort and hardwork all gone"

i tried my best to saved it but then i only manage to do a bit and i started to felt depressed and Cried really badly!!! i dunno how long i cried... i just felt alot and kept crying even when i am out of the house to go for movie...

i was seriously downright Sad.....

2009-02-16T02:34:00.002+08:00

I was on a Belated V day date... with someone special that is my MUM... guess what i think that was a dream date for me too...

firstly i gave her the bouquet at her workplace...

then we went out for dinner which she dun even know where... actually i also dunno where.. but in the end i picked a jap pasta restaurant that is called Pasta Waruku. had V day set meal.

in the middle of the meal, i sneak off to buy movie tickets for her.. i dun really know wat show so i just choose " New in Town"

then i brought her to max chocolate at esplanade and we talked abt life and love and stuffs....

then when is time for the movie, we went back to ms gv... as i am wearing short sleeve, she brought me a jacket....

the show was talking abt a career woman going to a town and falling in love with a man...
hmm simple love ba... can change what a person think....

this is my dream date... i just realize actually i experience before but then i didnt know how to treasure it...

2009-02-15T14:59:00.002+08:00

i am on Twitter =) .... https://twitter.com/Plutosotong

i find it is more simple for short msg... then my long blog!! and can use hp =)

anyway planing for later event

My belated V day with Mummy =)

2009-02-15T00:09:00.006+08:00

Happy Valentine DAY

i am in a super good moood today... not because i am out with a guy dating.. but because Love is in the air where i work... when i see people come and ask " i am here to collect my flower" i am like wa so romantic.... guessing where they go for their date later...

i met one person whose order was "will you marry me? bouquet" i was like wat a day to prospose so SWEET!!!!! i say i wish tat person all the best =) hopefully it is success by NOW!!!

anyway right there is something i more happy abt which i am keeping silent abt it....

and also thank to Mr Ryan boss of fef.com, He gave us Flower.... i am like in my entire life, i was given a bouquet....yes i did have someone gave me before but then tat was like all going to dead flower... and it is not really a bouquet.... so i am like WOW to the MaX

and thanks to mr peter plus a....e S... i got my photography name Plutosotong... and i cant believe i actually responded when i hear that name... faint i think i am just so use to it....

there is a moment i was day dreaming there... haha thinking to all Fef peoples.... pls dun send me SOTONG on my birthday... i am so going to faint....

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when i reach home and present it to my grandma and tell her how much i love her... i can see the happiness in her face...seriously if anyone had took care of me since the day i was born, it was her... i told myself as i grow, i must remember to make her happy and love her for the rest of my life... i told her lets take photo to remember today! she quick say let me change to a more pretty clothes... with the help of my grandpa we took a photo together too... seriously i really love my today to the max.....

anyway right now i got some plan... HAHA 21ths... like dunno how many... so making plan...yes 21th u cant give a bear and say happy 21ths... really it is super DOTz... so looking for it... planning and searching for it....

so share with me ur V day in the TAG.... love YOU lotz.....

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anyway before i forget... cause i tend to.. haiz..

monday - clear Home and Movie

tuesday - go Freightlink and manicure then meet grace =)

wed - Double O with MOnKIE and Michelle... YES ms MONKIE i remembered!!!!

thurs - REST (driving)!!!!

Friday - Batam here i come =)

Sat - Service

Sun - erm wat i have ar???

and damn it ADD is like coming... i have yet to think of a way to LOSE FAT... with my grandma night supper... haiz...this dream seem to be Game Over....

2009-02-14T01:51:00.003+08:00

the last flog paper is a FLOP!!! wa haha seriously in my entire ITE life, i nvn feel LOG as such a difficult module.... cause i am in HNItec in Logistic Management. and guess what i felt so damn idoit with my paper today...

anyway got MEL briefing I AM GOING to phuket again =) whee... this time round i just want to relax and Massage...

went back to FEF.com today... at first was asked to be in retail haha PR skill... i so going to need to improve it or i will die in singtel.... cause i was told i need to speak to high flyer... and it is my most important throughout my attachment.... and to be memorising script for 1 month... u can see how important this is....

then went to do pasting... ok i got to realize that i am aging... faint... cause i got STM...
then fold carton box... then do manual work...
super tired... but then fun and at the same time i keep tinking of my Batam trip on this coming friday... relax to the MAX.... 6 hours of relaxtion....

anyway going back to fef.com...make me miss 3 person.... XB, XM, selin, pris, phoebe and others...

anyway Happy V day to U.....

2009-02-12T21:29:00.001+08:00

Done with the last paper FLog...
damn so no mood to study but will just study and do the paper then holiday

2009-02-09T23:15:00.001+08:00

i finally get to taste once again the last dish that my dad made...

i will tried to make it... haiz... ICA jia you

2009-02-04T20:59:00.002+08:00

I need better patience with codes and Frontpage....

I need wisdom with handle human issue...

I need more time so that i can study well

maybe i realize what i need the most is YOU!

2009-02-02T11:41:00.001+08:00

Hi hi,

i finally change the look of my blog skin =)

hope this is better =)

2009-02-01T01:16:00.002+08:00

today zk, kt, alvin, alex and Wj came to my house for Steamboat, altot the prep work start at 8am, i am so happy to know that the effort was all worth it, they really enjoyed themselve and having fun =) except many for Alex and WJ cause manjong can only play 4 person...

haha in the end the biggest winner is Mr Alvin..wa he is pro lor... then follow by me and zk erm kt almost lost all....

but the fun part come from playing the WEST, i was so in need of Toilet when alvin mention u cant leave the table so ended up i played like super long and i dun even care who win or lose... i became merlion cause KT is super funny =) which i kept scolding her being slow... lol.... anyway is she started first!!!

but really had FUN.....

then rush to meet ITE mates... wa felt bad they waited for me.... so i rushed down to show face and then see them eat finish and go home =) but really wish i could spend more time with them..
hmm on the 18th, i promised them we will go for Ladies Night... lol...

ok now is Zz tmr Project

2009-01-31T00:52:00.004+08:00

i went for an informal interview and jump at the sight when the interviwer said hello cause i was munching biscuit... lol... it seem like i am a confirm staff cause i was being intro like the next intern... hmm but then deep down i still dunno... cause i keep thinking of the sea trade exhibition.. i meant like i wanted to do event management cause i prefer active then sitting in front of Com...

ok anyway the first question they had for me was Describe urself... hmm of coz i didnt said much as usual... cold at first but crazy at last... and they agree if i am able to handle work load then i can venture into small project which remind me of my last internship which i did a student guide..

ok i think i can thank Ms sarah for teaching me so much in FEF.com... haha i think it will be of good use... =) i am really considering should i raise it up this issue of the event company.. but then the environment of singtel just made me so warm inside...

i think i sort of having spilt personailty... i am so different in school, with sparc, with teachers, with fef.com, with siow chiang, with ite mates, with piggy family... but then all is a part of me =)

project coming up, exam coming up... party tomorrow with ite higher nitec mate and Sparc own party... so throw away text book and CHEERS!!!

to K: thanks... haha tat wat i did i slept and now i am awake...

2009-01-30T09:34:00.000+08:00

Today is the interview day.... nervous and still very sleepy... i didnt get enough of rest....

2009-01-28T13:37:00.003+08:00

Happy Niu Year.... haha i had been really happy this cny...

wheee.... meeting up with peoples.. and being happy with watever i do...

anyway..... erm i think someone misunderstand my intention... with i mean fight is not the exco thing.... it was reFering to another stuff...

MY new year is so Coolz... somemore i self declared one more day... haha

btw after 1 year plus, Finally the puzzle is DONE!!!! wheee

anyway i met up with my Nitec PEErs... oh man i am in love with them.... lol.... my V day is with them too..... haha.... hopefully we will grow old together too.....

tag Replies

to KT: wa... erm... i am not fighting for EXCO u misunderstood.... haha.... i dun think i can too....

to Pat: erm it is not the post i am refering to... haha...

to Lun: erm i am sorry but i dun really know how to adjust the size.... sorry abt tat

2009-01-24T17:08:00.002+08:00

The exco meeting was short...wa a way to start right?? but then had a talk with SY and YS... hmm i realize something that ITP in ITE might be different from ITP in poly... but then hmm
YS reminded me of one thing that no matter how fortune we are to some company, some are just not good, learned nothing... well i hope my this attachment will not be like that... i love work cause i hate to sit there and do nothing... anyway there will be a review on that... hmm feedback... well i just hope it will be great for us =)

anyway back to exco, well yes i had been saying i want to be a PUB assistant.. but then in the end i still got cold feet from applying and afraid i cant perform well.... so not applying is the answer... i see more potential in some of them and i believe they are up to it =)

hmm after longing and fighting, my spirit just get weary and i no longer want to fight for it...
although life is unfair but does alway fighting make it more fair??

anyway right, i just enjoy the peers of SPARCS... they are just so great to be with... went out with KT and Evelyn to orchard.... eve want to do her nail but then the shop is closed... so in the end, we went to HMV instead and dine at fish and co... haha kt is so crazy lor today but at the same time is she is so cute =)

wa... she remind me of childhood.... haha i think i starting to feel old again... but reallly had fun =)

2009-01-23T20:45:00.002+08:00

Finally i am able to blog... been so busy...

firstly is Marine engineering Exam which is like sianz... cause the result was i failed...
actually was quite disappointed...

2nd was 20% mark for ITSB which damn i also dunnno wat to do..

well at least 1 joyful thing was that I passed my PPCDL theory

and had fish and co as my reunion dinner.

then i today got new tat i will be going for MEL for March 2009 =)

CNY but i dun feel it at all....

2009-01-19T11:35:00.001+08:00

Ouch.... Pain...Very PaIN... Itchy... Very Itchy...

Fun sure it was.... well an update +)

friday... damn my phone speaker spoilt without knowing... so in the end, one piggy came to my place but i didnt open the door.... damn guilty.... BROUGHt a Plastic BAG for Sparc ADD/CNY??

Sat.... early in the morning 6am...wake up for Log Sparckie Outing at Changi Beach...reach abt LAte... but still having fun... anyway the game SPARC SPARC SPARC.. hmm in the end.. i think it sounded like vulgar.... haiz... but really nice to take MANY PIXs...all in FAcebook.... then went to CHURH... bad to serve with Slipper and my counting skill SUX...but thanks to great Usher team, i manage to fill my ZONE!!! help abit with recycling then went back home cause super tired...

SUN.... Morning 7.30am...wake up for Volvo ocean Race at One Degree 15 Mariner... COOL man... thanks to uncle for sending us in... it was really a LONG walk in....had fun... very nices shots.... BTW i clear my of my project.... 8R shot!!! hahaha..... i really love the photo i took in that event... nICe.... then went to stadium to run with JEN teddy( if you wonder how you got this name is because my happy or sad... u are the first i will goes too and u are nice to hug =D )

anyway with all the fun.... i still cant forget the PAIN... super pain LAR..... instead of tan, i GOT BURN... 3 times... skin pls dun PEEL!!!

2009-01-16T11:00:00.001+08:00

learning frontpage... feeling better =) haha or maybe i recover but then i am having FLU...so is zzz.... today there is project.... more and more project plus CNY plus marine eng plus GEMS plus PPCDL!!! wa..... crush MAN!!! so many things.... need to start remove things in my LIFE and set priority

2009-01-15T22:12:00.000+08:00

Today my stomach give way... so is my gastric...

2009-01-14T19:26:00.000+08:00

how will u feel at a brink that the history is repeating itself at a close breath...
i realize the same rush, the same mistake is like happening again...
but this time round, i told myself i dun wan to make the same mistake.. i dun wan to make someone fall... i dun wan to break someone...
all i wan is just to run away, keep away, move far away... not now... not this feeling...
after constructing, i realize everything break down again..

2009-01-14T08:09:00.000+08:00

While life is important for living
but what if one day the most important thing taken from you
will life still serve it same meaning?

well yap, i promise that today is all abt HW and Studying PPCDL!!! not thinking of anything
yap somethings are just best not to mention...

9 Feb - EXAM START for DMTM!! is like 3 more WEEKS!!!!!
24- TP
9Mar ITP

Promotion come from GOD... so dun think about it.

STUDY HARD!!!! Jia You ELAINE

2009-01-12T20:33:00.000+08:00

Wat a day, Bad day today... i am so super sleepy.. i struggle to go morning GEMS then i go attend a lesson on FLOG...which half on the world i am not interested at all.. i really feeling so stupid in the inside... wa lao after hearing that NITEC 3.2 can go poly... i really wish to bang the wall LOR!!! wat the F...ish....

the duty is so ....... BUT really my team under me is like so understanding... altot i am not clear but then they still understand and never blame me.... i realize one thing, i must not only learn from sparc but also from my usher IC ba... but i enjoy the part when kt,evelyn and me go eat together at FC4... we talk lotz... haha...

i decided that i will not force anything on my sister... i give her the freedom to choose to be free and to choose what she really want!

2009-01-12T08:09:00.000+08:00

Finally after spending 1 week of reading twilight series, i officially completed at 3:30am this morning... tat result in i am so damn sleepy and yawning away...

later got duty...

i think through what i had read through twilight series, other than love between edward and bella... i found something strong something that maybe i myself will want to keep reading so hard that is the family bond... it triggle the back of memories in my brain...that warm my heart and tiny droplet of waters beside my eye.
i am even considering of certain things..

i will remember the 5 rights!! i will do my best to remember them all!

to Fatin: thanks...
to k: erm so am i to said woof??

2009-01-11T22:30:00.000+08:00

Dear all,

Sorry for NO POST!!! cause currently ELAINE is obsess with READING twilight Series that she forget her sleep that she is human too... so wait till the SERIES she is reading finish, there will be no POST!!!

she is so into it till she is like a vampire now... not thinking human!!!!

2009-01-07T14:45:00.000+08:00

i am now a proud owner of the whole series of Twilight,New moon, (Eclipse, Breaking Dawn) owned by my sister offically!!!

well i spent 2 days of my life including lessons to just complete 2 books... awaiting excitely for my sister to pass me the other 2 photos!!

2009-01-05T12:13:00.000+08:00

It had been a sick day since friday when i have not much of appetite having bad stomach ache...

My sister is so great!! she helped me to borrow Twilight Book which i am determine to read within a day... so since there is no cg on sunday, i stayed home and read the book and slept cause i am still unwell...

guess too much reading, in the end, i had headache and feeling dizzy!!!

TOnight is little nonya last episode!!

=)

to xueqi: sure we will meet up =) oh MAN it had been so long...are u celebrating ur 21th?

2009-01-02T23:13:00.000+08:00

no sad thing for the 2nd day of 2009!!

but then i really learned to treasure.... i tot it was very cold cause i felt i am alway on the outside of everything, i never wanted to step in, i never felt belong...

but then one thing i realize is because i never step in!! i never step into the circle, i alway look from the outside...

anyway 2009 YES I WANT TO STEP IN!!!

to K: HI

to Kim: just promise me u will join us the next time!! love ya =)

to sky: yes i linked u.. haha my mentor in Accounting!